Im back

I have decided to start blogging again! Whether or not anyone reads it is okay! I am at the tualatin public library. One of my new favorite places to be. It is nice and quiet, air conditioned and just all around a relaxing atmosphere! I work tonight and I think darryl and kathy are coming in to say hello and eat some dinner! Super excited. lets see. I changed my train ticket because i scheduled it on the wrong day! Whoops my bad. but now i get to go see kaley the 22nd through the 25th! fun stuff!

It's Been Too Long

So I know that this blog says the everyday happenings of B... But there is another part of this blog and that is her lil sis "M!" So without little to do I am going to post something since no one has in a long time!
This week is finals week for me... it is hard because everyone is acting weird. But you don't think yourself personally is acting weird.. just everyone else! Then once school is over finally people are fun again! I had a big presentation to do this morning which I am overjoyed to be done with. My group was challenging but I think we pulled off our project in the end! Mom and Dad are out here this week which is kind of hard too. I feel pulled between school, friends, and family. (o and that great thing called packing!)
I have one more class today and another presentation meeting for tomorrow then done for the day! I think I may order pizza tonight because that sounds good! Finals week is also full of weird eating habits. I have been running on coffee, oreo cookies, and cereal! Yum right?!? And I am a Nutrition Major! Holy smokes.
I will be home for the summer soon. Seems weird. I don't know how I feel about going home. I will make a lot of money, but I am sad because most of my friends are not at home anymore. They are out at school. But I get to spend a lot of time with my family which will be so great! I also get to see my sister and brother and hang out with my niece (and future niece!) My heart is just so excited for all the great family moments I will experience this summer!
I think my heart is the most sad because my partner in crime (B) and I will not be together all summer. We had such a great time rooming together this year and I will truly miss our crazy adventures and silly dance sessions to Kenny G. I know that our next life change is good, but it is also very difficult to let go of B and let her move out and move on to bigger things then this little college town.
Well I better get onto my next class. Bye for now!

its been over a month

wow how does that happen? i get in a groove and forget to write on here. things are going well around here. awaiting mom coming out here which always spices things up! :) mares and I are constantly getting used to being roommates and sisters. it works out extremely well because I never have to worry about not being friends after a fight!!! our house seems to finally be settling down and getting used to each other. we are all very busy with different things. but it somehow all has a rythmn to it. this time in my life has been a paradox to me. it is restful but full of a lot of unrest? can that be? i feel as though i need this break to be a waitress and live in a non structured environment for awhile where there is not a lot of pressure, but that is not what God has planned for me and I know it. Its hard to know that I am where I am at for now for a reason, but also realizing i have these gifts that are not being utilized to there full capacity in my current employment. BUT i am absolutely loving my work with the youth. honestly i just find them a breath of fresh air in my week. God has calmed my worries about "not being able to be a good leader" blah blah blah. its funny how i have begun to step out on obedience and doors have opened and i have found a strong fit for how I am wired to serve. I actually never thought about any of that before I sat down to write tonight. I keep missing all of these "whispers" God has put in my life. ugh. so right now I am struggling with whether or not to go to personal training school or online. I honestly feel as though it is the school or nothing because I know I cannot learn effectively online. I could barely and I mean barely handle lecture. I am a hands on learner. i think we all know that about me. I like to see and do. learn and then practice. have constructive criticism and do it again. But financially I am frustrated because I want to make the right choice on all accounts. I feel at a loss for what direction i want to go in. But when i sit there and think i get excited about helping and encouraging and maybe helping with a sports team. I don;t know. but I really need prayer with that. it sounds dumb but it has always been a passion of mine and I think it would utilize a lot of my strengths but also effectively build up some of my weaknesses. work is well...work. it has its ups and downs. and it is not what i want to do for the rest of my life. but I have made good friends and have been working my way up in the trust of my managers. :) so that makes me happy. I notice when I dont write for awhile it is always the heavy stuff. but I will tell some funny stories on here too!!! love you all and thanks for making my life so wonderful.
B

More bloggin for me

I saw this little fabric on etsy...sorry you guys now get all my blogging craziness. :) But it happens. It is by a place called boosterseat!

I thought that these were so cute! I found it on a blog and just thought they were hilarious. You can put them into an interchangable necklace! :)
B

Here we go again

today was a mixed up day. wake up. eat. clean a bit. realize I need more storage units. realize I have not worked in awhile so buying storage units seems like an expense I do not want to have. decide not to buy storage units quit yet. Mo calls. Comes over. We grocery shop. I then realize how little food I had. Big dent in food money for the month. But I have food. Home again. Help bring new soccer things over to new soccer field. I am the only girl there to help. But I am glad I could help my friend connor out. Its rediculously hot out. get burned-ish but impressively not too bad of one. get ready. woooooooork away. I was out of it tonight. just not all there. I was actually in a good mood I just think I had gotten out of the habit of having work regularly so it seemed to be extra effort to get my groove down and I did not feel very charming tonight. sometimes I just feel so amazingly flawless at things and sometimes I feel rather awkward. My tonight was an inbetweener. I had a few tables that just were rediculous and I tried to explain what they were getting and made sure they knew and they said they had had it before and then of course at the end of the meal is when all the complaints come out. that could be one of my biggest pet peeves is when I come up several times and walk through several times to make sure they have ample time for me to get them another thing or see what I can do....but at the end of the meal I am just kind of miffed. I do not have much patience for that. BUT I don't them know it! so here I am laying in bed ready to go to sleep. nothing too entertaining today. I just rammed my toe into the desk I took down to my living room....thats the thing about moving things places that are usually big object free. then when it is dark you forget they are there and then wham-o toe gets scrunchified. OH my do we have an abundance of zucchini. so many zucchini. I got some a week or more ago at the farmers market and so did alexis. then she got some from our neighbors and then I got a bunch from grandma. SO now we have so many zucchini and we need to find ways of using them so that we dont waste them. so i will keep you all updated on our zucchini adventures. love you all
peace
B

I need to change things up a bit

SO in an effort to begin all of this blogging again i am going to switch up my layout and make it more exciting again. I don't know what happened....well yes I do. Every time I get on here i just want to look at other peoples blogs and I forget that although my reader base is relatively small...i still do indeed have a reader base AND i need to continue writing about life happenings. because lets be honest I have a lot of changes going on and I am terrible about stating them when people ask how work is or how it is being out of college. I do not really like just listing off things and talking about myself. so this is a way of kind of talking about myself but in a more comfortable way for me. journaling to a live audience. oh my i was just thinking how much I missed this form of communicating. I am listening to the c.d. I got from haley(jake johnsons girlfriend) who was at the reunion and is a super good musical artist. I really like the c.d. and I am trying to see the metior shower but I can't tell if I am seeing the shower or I am telling myself I am seeing things fall. that is why i should watch those types of things with another person because then it is an experience shared together and I know for sure if I saw them fall. but it is a gorgeous night out. but I feel much better coming back from the reunion than I did when i came back from montana. but I still feel odd because i looked so forward to these 2 trips for so long that it is almost like I finally have to buckle down and realize that I am not going back to college and that one of my best friends is married and I am getting 2 new roommates and a list of other things too. but on our way home today grandma gloria and grandpa and I were talking about change and how no one is immune to it. and for some reason those kind of convos always help me take a step back and know that i will never arrive. its a journey and if I never learn to enjoy it then i will always live without really jumping in. and i feel tentative right now...like the grass is greener over there or over there. when my grass is perfectly green right here and I can't know what will happen but I can know lord willing I will be here for a year. and for now that is all I can seemingly know. but being with family this weekend was such a blessing because I just had a chance to play and be active and just be. I don't know but I came home physically tired but spiritually and emotionally so refreshed. what a great recharger and memories that will last a lifetime. games, canoeing, bananagrams, blongo, wiffleball, hiking, walking, hyme singing, no screen in our room, crazy loud, crazy fun, bochie ball, baseball card game.....I could go on for forever. I am so blessed.