MIA

Sorry I have been so missing in action this month! I have been extremely busy this semester. Between work, school, modeling, and relationships I have been feeling very stretched to the limit. Classes have been really difficult. Well not all classes actually. just accounting. It is really hard and very time consuming. I have a test in that class tomorrow so if you could be praying for me with that that would be fantastic. I can't wait to come home for spring break. I want to show Ryan all montana things! I know I won't have time to, but I think he will love montana! Valentine's day with him was really special :) He sent me on a scavenger hunt where at the end I found blazer tickets for a game on March 3rd! YAY! my first NBA game!!!!! I am very excited!!!!!!!! I would have to say my favorite part of his gift was the poem he wrote for me... here it is :)

Like Petals on a Sunflower

There are many different things that I love about you,
Your eyes, nose and your mouth,
These things that I love are
The petals of your sunflower.
I love the times that we laugh together,
Playing games, coloring, or folfing too,
These times vastly outnumber,
The countless petals on a sunflower.
I love to hold your hand,
And walk for hours.
Every detail of my love
Is a petal on a sunflower.
You are the sunflower of my life,
A joy beyond compare,
You brighten each and every day,
Like the petals on a sunflower.
I love you Mary,
Like you love the petals on a sunflower.

It is funny how the favorite part of a person's gift is the words they choose to write!
Today I have a lot of studying to do. blech. I am going running with Bee in 45 mins. then lunch, then studying! I am going to ask bethany if she wants to go to Gma and Gpa's tonight maybe. I think we should go and visit them. I love you and will write again soooooon!

Personal Annoyances

I just need to take a second to unwind after my last class in which I saw one of my good friend, who it just so happens seems to always ask me a question and I instinctively know they are only asking it in order that they can talk about how amazing their "blankety blank" is better than yours. I call it the bragging complex. And he just seems to always do it. The problem with me, as I have told Kales recently, is I am generally a patient person in a lot of things, but once I get really really annoyed and impatient it is hard for me to fake it. Which I feel is a terrible quality, but then I don't want them to think that they can just brag about themselves all the time and that that is interesting conversation. I enjoy listening, but then it reaches a point where they are being so ridiculous it is hard for me to keep my expressive self non-expressive...... as in I am not good at hiding my feelings once pushed over my limit. So Lord give me patience because I feel like I have none with certain people. I wonder what annoys people about me....oh I am sure there are many many things. I suppose people are supposed to annoy each other...the little idiosyncrasies that make us all so unique can also be the things that drive people the most nuts. This is more of a funny one, but apparently I say "Red Robbins, Chipotles..." I can't think of any more right now, but it drives some of my friends nuts that I add an "s" to it. :) I just do. whoops. I just had to get that off my mind...at least to a certain extent. Sometimes I get in moods where a person chewing too loudly or clicking their pen obsessively just drives me up a wall and then other times i don't even notice it. Being observant is both a blessing and a curse. Right now it seems more like a curse. BUT I will be over it in a few days....maybe the chewing and the clicking, but I am not so sure about the bragging complex. That will probably take some effort to know how to handle it! Love you all
Peace and Love
B

Sunshiney Sun

For the past week it has been sunshiney. Ever so sunshiney. And it has been glorious. I fell refreshed and renewed for another 2 weeks of rain and clouds. AND p.s. everyone. Spring Break is in about 3ish or 4 ish weeks. THAT is not far off. and THAT is great...nay....EXTRORDINARILY (sp?) EXCITING!!!!!!!!! Track has been going really really well and i am not sure why everything seems to be falling into place. I have been focusing a lot on enjoying each practice for what it is. It is honestly a direct correlation to life in how each one has its own challenges, but also each workout is specifically designed to be super hard all the way to super easy. Some days are going to be like those workouts and each one still possesses an innate challenge and enjoyment. I got new running shoes the other day. The glory of new running shoes is what I kept thinking about on Sunday because I seriously love new running shoes. I think it is just knowing how much will go into the shoes. That one pair can go to so many places with you and through so many hard workouts that will help shape and define who you are as a runner and a person as a whole. I know they are only shoes, but we talked a lot in my consumer behavior class about how things become extensions of self. That has nothing to do with anything really. I just thought it was kind of an interesting correlation between how a pair of footwear can be so pivotal to runners phycologically and physically. And this is why I am a marketing major. :) I just got done having a workout session with kales. I told her from now on I could be her personal trainer! Its fun telling people what to do. I am not usually bossy, but I like to be in this settting!! We have created new cleaning rules around the house, which I think will be a help in getting everyones involovement in the everyday chores and the conscienciousness of keeping things picked up and looking like we take pride in our home! SOOOO far it has been going well. We call it a "tag" program where every time you clean something you tag the next person in another job that needs to be done and so on and so forth and then every sunday night we keep each other accountable for doing something during the week and make sure the house is spotless before monday. AND I finally cleaned my room, which to be honest (I say this every time...I am sully aware) makes everything seem SO much less daunting in life. How can that be? That just cleaning up and having everything in its place has such an impact on my outlook on life... crazy. I don't feel as bogged down and like the walls are closing in on me. and my room is really big. I mean really big. tomorrow is tuesday. I don't mind tuesdays. Because all the sudden it is wednesday and then thursday...and then friday. Yeah that was a great explanation I know..... :) I have a race on Saturday...and my stomach just turned thinking about it. And that is a good thing. I need to be nervous. It makes me run fast as lightning....and lightning is pretty dang fast if you ask me. I am running the 1500 and maybe the 800. I am praying I do not have to run the 800...that is unnecessary embarrassment. The 1500 is even pushing the fastness for me. The womens b-ball team plays here this weekend for the playoffs. I hope they can go far this year. The men had a game last friday where they won by 1 in overtime. It was insane....I just wish more people came to the mens games. Our school is so messed up. The crowd is packed out for the women and then the crowd all leaves for the mens game! :( sad, but true. what else....hmmmm da da hmmmmm......I have been looking at other blogs a lot lately and I am tellin ya...there are some really cool craft ideas! Kales and I get our creative think tanks full of possibilities every time we look! We are going to have a colorful pancake night coming up, probably on sunday! You put food coloring in the batter. Which could be nasty and was also on a blog for kids, but we will always be young at heart, so it is perfect!!!!! Chris, kaley's bf, said they looked kind of nasty, but we got him on board when Kaleys said there would be chocolate chips. And mares and fatty(ryan) have to come too. People will be forced to come and eat colorful pancakes....because it is fun. They will have fun... they have to! And we call ryan "fatty" because last year when kales and I turned around he was just shoveling jello into his mouth...thus the name fatty, which has stuck. So when he comes out to visit over spring break you all best be calling him fatty... got it? yeah you better have got it! I will tell you all again. NO WORRIES!!! I am good at keeping you all updated..... Thats a lie. I seem to have a knack for not posting these days. NOT OKAY I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to calm down the exclamation points a wee bit. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I don't know what that was, but I am leaving it. Enjoy your evenings of olympics and zoë and food and laughter and relaxation and snow and all other things that pertain to your lives as a whole. I have not gotten to watch the olympics.....which to be honest ticks me off quite a bit. I did not get to watch the summer ones either, but to be honest nothing compares to watching figure skating with carolyn and mom and abbie and the hunter girls in general and mares too. Its just not the same. And I suppose skiing really isn't my thing, but I love watching people compete on that kind of a level. Excellent. just excellent. I tried to wrap this up, but then I get caught on other things...I suppose that is what abbie meant by ramblings! :) i get it now. I just can't stop myself.
I love you all so much. so much I want to keep writing. Its like I am writing you all a letter. And how great is that...... ANSWER (as always)-----SOOOOOO GREAT!
Love and peace
B

Kaleys Blog of newness

Hey everyone!
My best friend Kales just revamped her blog and will be making it more of a picture blog! I thought I would put it on here because she has mo and joeys engagement pics that she took on it and some afi ones too! :) so i thought you would all enjoy looking at it here and there. She is also going to do a sega of pics coming up here pretty soon! So be on the lookout for that as well. I will of course tell you though. I can't help but tell you all sorts of things. And I am sure you all love it so much.

here it is. And don't you all worry i will be writing another post after this one...not that I need to write that seeing as you won't all read this 20 minutes after I write it! <3

sissybell.blogspot.com

Alrighty Spideys. Everyone check it out. It is in its beginning stages, but even in its beginning stages it looks great! Hip Hip Hurray for Kales Bo Bales.

Peace
B

February sun

Thanks to the February mid month sun we have been having the past few days people are far less dead looking and more friendly. Seriously about this time in the semester if we do not get sun of some sort people, yes including me, just seem sluggish all the time!!! SO for a few days at least we get to experience some springish weather. The only problem when the sun comes out is that girls just go crazy wearing shorts and short skirts and tank tops. Its still February people...not the end of march. I am waiting to go to lunch with mares and am soooo hungry. I hate that feeling when you think your stomach is going to just rumble away. I am not really sure what that means, but I am leaving it. I am officially the seamstress for our "Coffee Comfort" company. We are currently in the trial and error stage. I have to take a part about 10 more coffee sleeves and resew them because the cutting was a little bit different this time around, so I have to make the seam farther in. I honestly really like making our product. It takes a lot of time, but I am learning a lot about the process of managing and having a business. We can also specially make them! I know montana is not into the whole reusable products thing quite yet, but honestly they are a legit product with the george fox logo on the outside. Can you imagine Faith E logo ones in the Well? :) Just throwing out some ideas. If any of you want one they are only $5 and you know who made them and everything :) kind of cool! soooo theres that. I seem to always give an update on that for you all. What else. My knee is finally back to almost normal. I ran an entire workout the other day and it felt sore but not much else!!!! I was super excited about that! It got a little old having to ride the bike for 5 weeks straight almost. I posted some pics from christmas of Zoë from christmas and some others too, but mostly zoë. Can't help it if she is the cutest! Last weekend was Grandpa Ronnies birthday party for his 80th! M and I ended up going on Saturday night and surprising gpa with the rest of the family that could make it. They had no idea and afterwards one of the first things that grandma said was.. "You should have told me so I could have brought a camera in" oh grandma then it would not have been a surpirse. We had cake and saw baby Lillian who was 9 days old. And of course there was singing by Jake and Jerry and Cameron. It can;t be a Camp get together without some amazing singing happening! :) The next day when we went to the restaurant there were 30 of us, 24 adults and of course we sang our prayer with harmony and everything and you could just hear the entire restaurant get quiet....even though we were in the back room. How great. it was beautiful. Mary and I went to church with grandpa and then everyone came to the church and we drove to the restaurant on a school bus. And of course there as singing and lots of laughing. And little kids enjoying the bus ride! Overall it was a great day and perfect for valentines day. Because I did not have anything else to do! Anyways...got to go
Love you all
Peace
B

bach bach

Today was full of all the boring details I so often avoid. My room is a disaster again because my bed is just chillin in the middle because lo and behold I still cannot figure it out. But maybe tomorrow, which seems to be the theme of the week with this bed fiasco! I am trying to write a blurb whenever i think about it! I got to run hills today and the knee has not killed at all. it just is tender and I hate that word, but that is what it is. SO as of right now the plan for Spring Break is for Mares, RyRy, Joey and I to travel out in Ryans car and spend that week at home!!!!!! It would be a lot cheaper than some other options and since I am staying out here I would really like to come home before molly's wedding in July. and this also gives joey a chance to come out and help her, which he was not going to get to do before. It was actually a beautiful day here, but I heard the ground hog saw his shadow and so I suppose that means 5 more weeks of winter. Stupid groundhog.....shall we try it again? isn't that a movie with bill murry. anyways. we watched the bachelor tonight and their is a girl on it from newberg who went to fox, tenley. Her mom actually works in admissions here. weird. mom I wish I could watch it with you, but oooooh wait a second aren't you busy or something, like on a cruise?!? :) I am sure you are having a blast. and that is probably the biggest of understatements. Just so you know I had classes from 8:40 on and ALSO did hw in between, then practice and the bachelor...about the same right? jealous? I am missing mom to watch the bachelor with and dads pithy comments in between commercials and the show. Tomorrow i think we are doing 1 minute speeches in my senior business capstone, so hopefully all those times we were in the car and dad gave us a random subject to talk about will help me..... I never know what will happen in that class. things just happen and they are awkward, but kind of necessary. My coffee comfort business for senior capstone just sold its first 24 coffee sleeves. woot. I hope we can at least make a profit! we shall see. I best be going to bed.
peace
B

Uncertainty

Today was a wonderful day. Honestly this semester has been an amazing one so far and I have enjoyed every minute of it. Ya know I feel as though the world I am living in now, the bubble I suppose, is slowly but surely being popped. I have built my life around these past four years of experience and I have grown and changed in exponential ways. But it is coming to an end soon and I can feel myself realizing it is okay and I am ready to move on into the uncertainty that lies ahead. I love the thrill of a new challenge, but it still comes with its own set of emotions, whether they be excitements or distresses.... Tonight I was preparing for a job fair next week and I just took at step back and looked at all the things I have done and it just seems like nothing. All these things I have done and worked so hard in, when I look at them on paper it seems like nothing, but as I delved into the meaning of each and ever one of them and how they have shaped me, it took on a whole other abstract view into who I am and what I am wired to do. I do not know the specifics of jobs or money or really anything in the next few months and that gives me a tummy ache when I work on some of these things. But I suppose it is about taking off a bite at a time. I am here for now, but i can prepare. I am uncertain. Living on the edge of future and present. And not letting the future negatively dictate what is happening around me right now. I feel ready and yet ill prepared, oh the contrasts. But life is beautiful. Leave that to my over optimism. Okay let me think of some other things in life that are happening. This week is homecoming week, so a lot of activities are going on. fun fun. I broke my bed the other night. Just me this time, at 4 in the morning I was asleep and then I woke up and then the bottom of my bed collapsed. And then of course I was like... oh i bet I can still sleep on this and be fine, even if it is a little tilty. No that was terrible when I realized all forms of blood were rushing to my toes. I then thought about sleeping on the couch and then realized...you are dumb bethany. Just take your bed off of the frame and sleep on that. Done. perfect solution. NOW I am still on that same mattress, but am trying to work on the bed frame to take it all the way down. we shall see how that turns out. Things have just been one thing after the other. I don't know where the time goes, but I feel like the homework never stops and events are always there. Which is fantastic. But makes things go soooo fast. My knee is doing much better. I am slowly running on it. And trying not to get frustrated. It has made me think about how much I take running for granted because it completely shot my knee for about 2 weeks. Alrighty then. That was an odd post and I should really go to bed, but i knew if I did not write it might be awhile!!! ;)
Love you all
Peace
B